hate being taken for granted,
in every aspect of my life.
be it work or friend or whatever.
im not your spare tyre.
sheesh. i dont feel anything anymore
it must be yr fault and i hate you
theres a picture of us in my room
but i covered yr face with a moustache.
you dont deserve to show yr ugly smile
in my room. thats how much i hate you.

once bitten, forever shy.

thigh hurts. why everyone's life super dramatic this wk?
why everyone having issues?
just hope everyone will live in peace
and be happy.
life really is that simple.

cant compare to my life
which is so mundane and safe
plus ma feelings dont get hurt
and im just rotting till the 14th.
just having issues with my size,
which is rly quite a waste of time.
hah.

thanks for taking the effort to meet me di,
and the cupcake candle awwwwww
totally the thought that counts.

lexydear pls pick up the phone. 10.46am
thought i was the late one.
but noooo,
the effects of yesterday will
stay today.
i better do good styleframes now!
:)
this week was kinda terrific! i woke up today and decided
enough is enough!
my ends has got to go!
its v fustrating everyday u wash yr hair
it takes forever to dry, drip drip
and they are so longgggg and weak!
my hair is terrible and the numbers get lesser
and lesser each wash!
that was practically what
i was looking forward to the whole day!!
all of my friends say i look better in long hair
so i decided to keep it,
if not i would have bravely did the tomboy style
im srs!

supper w aaron in admiralty!
expected ken and josh, but
glenn timmy and mikey came too!
reunion indeed! cant believe i reached
home at one!
did some chores
i feel super happy that i accomplished
what i needed to do!
and i miss my hamburgirls
v badly!

need to jog.
hate nuaing in a room click the mouse all day!

lastly, boys will be boys.
none of them noticed my chopped hair!! today felt more like the colours on my nails
than the blues.
i survived the day and left to meet
bro in town for some walking around.
somehow i h8 this feeling but
eventually i will have to get use to it.
thats life.

ytd i attended mass w timmy
and during homily, father was mentioning
abt falling in love and that its like you're showing
gods love to the person u fell in with.
if thats the case i dont mind falling
for everyone!
the freaky thing was i blogged abt it
that morning. so it was like ohhhhemgeee
in my heart.

her?
who the heck is she?
she doesnt have a name??
thats sad.

grr i could get use to this.
im always the bad guy,
just like helga.

lets go tioman!
ohyeah that reminds me i swam
on sat but no effect
and my bro glided past me.
now my thighs kinda hurt. i fell today it was
kinda fun falling.
wish i can fall in love also
hahhaha omg
am i good or whut!
love you girls!
nice mtg you today norfish!
ok gdnight
so tired i feel like a prey today.
everybody seems to h8 me
and wanna tear me and eat me up
wts i dont even knw what i did wrong

one abhores me,
one thinks im some kind of carmelite nun
i cant even use the word bastard?
srsly?
i know we both have the best of
intentions for our father,
we're just not on the same page
and you cant assume that your page
is the right page.
i hate your attitude!
you think everyone is wrong
except you. dont tell me to
change, and my attitude suckx
and everyone hates me and all.
bastard.
oops i said it, wow its a crime.
a huge crime,that i get to
appear in the crime and investigation
channel.


or maybe you're right?
and god has been punishing me
for bad behaviour?
my stomach hurts like hell
like almost everyday.
what if my dad is right?
what if i have stomach cancer
like the lady in the article
no uh noooooo!

happy fathers day
i love my dad
he's awesome! on my way to meet stickman lastminute
tmr meeting ma homies and norfi for dinner
together! so fun cant wait!!
what to buy for fathers day uhhhh!?!
i can only think of fishes and fish stuffs.
i cant w8 for bkk tooooo!
14-18 july wooooohooo!

so glad its friday
so glad to leave ubi yay thursday!
did this while doing
their office wall deco...
3 more hrs...
can do this jos.
ltr book bkk hopefullyyy
:) oh by the way,
i really enjoyed myself on thursday night
we went jalankayu and makan and laugh like
shit cause of his stories.
i also had a blast on friday night after triduum
with the twins faith and bel,
crystal jade buffet with xlbsssss
and chilling at henderson bridge till 4 in the morning!
its like the first time and it wont be the last!
awsums.
i had the nicest sleep till 1 in the afternoon awaken by my dad
(he's back!)
and i had a crazy night on saturday (the later part)
at zirca and groove with lex and fwiendssss!
i hope the fun-ness will help me last through another week of work.
tyvm. i just reached home from a long day,
feeling really sucky.
like the walk home from church was long and lonely
and sucky.
sucky feeling.
burst to my dad when i reached home. haiyaaa.
why am i always so oversensitive,or i think too much and i cry too much.
i dont think for myself, i should start doing things for myself
and not for other people.
i had a really fun night at zirca though,
but coming home and rushing my bags was what i regretted the most
i din do it sincerely and rushed right through it.
should have done it properly, my bags are not cheap yknw.
but thanks you guys so much for helping.
i feel really sucky,cause i only sold 4 out of 9 bags.
and one little girl came up to me and said "nobody bought your bags" "they din even look at them"
and then i asked her "do you like my bags?" she answered a straight no.
wah my heart broke man.

i came to church at 8am in the morning
diligently taking photos for the media team,
but my partner came at 12plus.
idk uh, its like i put so much effort to do everything
triduum, video files, art work files,funfair,
while everyone else ard me like...
idk uh, so mean to judge also.
but thats how i feel
and it sucks.
and i followed her ard walk back and forth for like a hundred times
finding ppl to interview.
was trying to be nice , but idk why i still complain.ahya no surprise im always complaining,nvr satisfied or nice.
i had to help my mum's stall with packing up and stuff somemore
come to think about it,i shdnt have offered to sell my bags too.
or not i wouldnt have to help and i wouldnt have to face the harsh reality that my bags dont sell.
i freaking wore a dress to church thinking i would attend 11 and sleep the whole noon after i reached home
but noooooo, i missed it and had to walk ard in this tight short dress (getting fat) feeling so uncomfortable.
i feel sour because of this also, all because i didnt listen to my heart or did what i wanted to do,
which was to wear casual comfy clothes. :(

yeah its raining now
the world is crying tgt with me.
now i have to wait for 6pm mass.
havent slept since yesterday.
and i look like a loser in smeared mascara and eyeliner.
and i've been bloated since ytd.

feast day every year,
i meet and talk to people i havent talk in a long time.
its a great feeling,to catch up,to see them smile. its also a sad feeling,
to know how much i miss them and what drifted us apart.
life.
im not as strong as you forks, but i will try.

wished i had someone to myself to share all this stupid
immature feelings with and understand how i feel,
guess not.
i hate it when life or incidents bring me down.

yeah and it hasnt stopped raining yet.
i miss my family.

and then bali, whos gna go with me? time passes fast when you're busy!
like today! had to come out w frames
by the end of the day,
had yk talking beside me
makes everythg less tired and more fun
and more motivated??
im counting down the days till
i end and go for holiday, wherever it may be,
whoever it may be with.
i need it.

went to church
mum was there painting her stuffs,
didnt want to go initially but
i didnt regret it!
talk and chill outside the workshop
with sherman and uncle ant lexy and christie
and a few
of them. saw the night cyclers.
reminise my good ol youth
activities days (as usual)
saw seanboy
nice to meet you sean.
and i reached hm at 12.

this weekend im
gna meet norfi and gang,
so excited!
and many things happening as well
friday nightttt with faithy ken ben!!!!
feast day funfair!
:)

smtimes its best to let go
move on, there are other things
out there worth thinking of.
what has happen to us all?
bigggg sigh. i can finally smell things ard!
my melon scented candles,
my justwashed blanky pillow bolsty,
my tropical fruit handsoap
i just realised sense of smell
rly very impt.

i had a rly grt time for the whole
of last week!
mbs weekend,yacht night,
thursday work-free day,
gluttonsbay with afc friends,
(where the sore throat started! all sinful
food!)
friday i din go work.
at night i caught hangover2 with faduli.
saturday met victor at queensway to look for printshirt shops
went for kennethsongs bday bbq at downtown east.
squeezed in zaki's car! all 8 of us, to arab st.
chillx with a mix grp of ppl naize.
:)

i cant get use to it
but i will try.
feast day this week.
busy week ahead.
gdnight, im working tmr!

i h8 being alone
whyyy ahhh why. omg. if its lovin that you want.
fav song of the wk.

i left work early first time!
gg on the yacht for dinner ltr
and a bit of fishin i think w my relatives
work is getting better i think
although i do coporate vid
haha dayummm.
and after a week of
bus taking, i finally found the shortcut
to walk to the train station, joy.

was at motionographer and vimeo
and the spark just came bk agn.
the drive and spark goes on an off one.
i wanna learn cinema4d and do my own
random shit, yeah i knw. all talk no action.

the twins went aussie and aaron went atlanta
its a bit quiet eh, no one whatsapp me

was over at mbs during the weekend
with dad cus and michson.
suddenly feels like i got another brother
hah, it was kinda fun but i wished
my friends could join in too.
cant wait for the next one!

at this point of time in my life
being alone is not so bad afterall.